I’m getting better, and have been improving a little.
I’m about to start on a new job, and I’m pretty sure time will move fast again after that. It’s a higher-paying job than what I had. With all this comes the fact that I’m actually an adult, who’s earning a lot, and of course slowly getting away from my youthful ways and dreams.
I probably have to reevaluate my life at this point. In my previous job, I wanted to do a lot of things and even had this idea for multiple causes like talking to strangers and learning about their lives. But of course I didn’t have the time or energy. Now that I did have the time, I just didn’t give a fuck and wasted my time playing video games.
I’ve changed these past two years. Probably ever since I got sick. I got better, I guess, then I got worse. If anything, there ought to be action and next steps so I can improve from here, and if things work out with my new job then money won’t be much of a problem.
Time management and taking care of my health would be the utmost priority.
Hobbies? I would definitely want to write more. I would definitely want to be meeting people and traveling more.
Goals? I will have to be eating more. I will have to work on my fitness and start getting my ass into exercises, eventually into the gym. I’ll have to be waking up early from now on. It doesn’t help that I’m writing this at 2AM.
I just want to improve the quality of my life. If anything’s keeping me from the life I want, then I’ll have to cut it off and remove it from my life.
But really, I’m still most often sad. I hope this changes, and that I do get some enjoyment from my job, (although I’m not actually officially employed yet, but getting there) but otherwise I need somethings to really focus on, like my legacy.
Did I want to write a book? Learn to code? Make a game? Really, it’s hard to think about all those larger goals when I haven’t been able to take care of my health, on purpose. How do I get back up again and change my situation? Maybe, and I hope, that this new job will force myself to get up and really get things going.